Perfect

Dear Son,

Anytime you feel down or lost, please remember one thing.

Every difficulty, every challenge, every black moment-- every tear and every minute of suffering I experienced was worth it, because it brought me to you.

I can't change the choices I've made, can't take back any of my mistakes. Neither can you. But you can steer your ship toward safe harbor, and believe me son, you will make it there.

The most perfect moment of my entire life was this afternoon, sitting and holding you as you fell asleep. You were snuggled under my chin and happy to be close to me. I knew that someday you wouldn't want to cuddle me like that, and I was determined to appreciate every second of being with you. I realized then that there was nothing else I could possibly ask for. You make me so happy I think I could burst.

Life won't always be this amazing, my little one. I know that there are challenges ahead for me, because that is the nature of living. Hopefully with strength and your Daddy's companionship, I will weather them all. And anytime I feel down, I will look back on how I felt being with you, loving you, in this perfect moment.

I love you. You'll never know how much.